The Fat Kid

My daughter and I went through a bullying situation last year. Some kids can be really cruel. I guess it can happen to anybody. When it happened to my daughter, it stirred up some painful feelings inside me that I had hidden deep down inside underneath all my fat.

I didn't just become fat overnight. I have been overweight my whole life. When I was in school, I was the perfect target for the bullies. I went through hell and back with the kids in my school. I went through name calling, pen metal being rubbed on the desk and then put on my skin (burned me), and pig pictures put in my locker. You name it, I probably had it done to me. I can't help but think this part of my life molded me into a very insecure person (this wasn't the only thing that molded me but a part of it). I can remember going home some days and just crying my eyes out because I felt so alone. I was the type of person who just took it. I didn't go tell the teachers or tell my Dad. I just let it go. Inside I hurt! It was a hard time in my life.

As the years went on, I was less of a target and was a bit more accepted for being who I was. I ended up leaving high school with some wonderful friends that I still have today.

I do not hold what I went through against the kids who did this to me so many years ago. As I stated early, "Kids can be really cruel." I have taken the negative and tried to turn it into a positive. I have shared this story with all 3 of my children. I have tried to teach them not to put labels on anyone and to give each person a chance. It doesn't matter what any of us look like, it's what we have inside that matters. I was grateful the day my daughter came to me to tell me that she was being bullied. We faced it head on and it got straightened out immediately.

My point to this blog was not to put the "oh poor me" story out there. It was to share an awful story with hopes that someone reading this will share this story with their child and teach them that bullying is wrong. It can affect a person for many, many years. Also, if a child is being bullied, I hope this story will let them know it is 100% okay to tell someone. Do NOT hold it in. It will tear up your insides. Ask for help!

Until next time.....

Peace.

My 30 Day Challenge

After writing my blog post last night, I made myself a 30 day challenge. For 30 days, I am going to exercise 3 days a week. It doesn't matter what days, what exercise or at even what time. I am just going to do it. Of course there had to be a 2 hour delay for school today, so I had to wait even longer to start my new challenge.

As soon as I got everybody off to where they needed to be, I tackled my VCR tape cabinet. It has been a long time since I have been in there. You should have seen the dust. It was scary. I must have gone through about 60 tapes to find what I wanted. As I was digging, I found 10 different exercise tapes. I laughed to myself and thought, "Man, if I had only stuck with these tapes. At this point, I would have had "Buns, Abs and Legs of Steel". I would be a great "Tae Bo boxer" because Billy Blanks would have taught me, and I would be one relaxed person because I would have known how to do "Pilates" and "Yoga" tapes. If only I had used them.

The tapes I found, that I know I did use (and used today) was my "Sweatin' to the Oldies with Richard Simmons". I use to have so much fun with those tapes. This is what I decided to start my challenge with. I put the tape in, listened to it start and immediately remembered how the tape went. I haven't done this tape in years. Before I knew it, I was sweatin' in my living room. I couldn't remember the ending of the tape though. As I was doing the monkey, twist and pony--I was praying it was coming to an end. I stuck with it though, all the way to the end. You gotta love Richard Simmons. He takes you through the exercise routine without you even knowing it. I can't wait until tomorrow. I already have a time blocked out just for Richard. Let's see how long I let Richard stay in my living room.

Until next time....

Peace.

Snow and More Snow

We had so much snow today and it is still coming. I shoveled 5 times today. As I sit in my chair with my feet up, I can feel every muscle in my body burning. At first I was complaining about it. Then it hit me. I exercised today. :) I am not sure how many calories I burned, but I must have burned something. I have been doing my weight loss plan (will talk more about the plan in future blog posts) for about 3 months. I really haven't been exercising though. It is hard for me to find the right time for a work out. I rise around 5:30am most days, work on and off through out the day until the evening and then I just want to come home and relax. I am usually sitting in my chair around 7pm or so. I really need to figure something out. I wish I was so motivated, that nothing could get in the way. I just haven't made it to that point yet. Sad, but at least I am honest. Maybe I need to get out my old, "Sweatin' to the Oldies" VCR tapes and sweat with Richard Simmons again. I'll work on that.

I was laying in bed last night thinking about my blog. I was wondering if I will have any comments or if I will have any followers. I told myself, it is a work in progress, just like my body and it can only get better from here. I just hope months from now and lots of posts later, I find that I have helped one person with my honest journey.
Until next time.....

Peace.

The Beginning

This year is a big year for me. I am getting married. Yay! I have also made it my goal by the end of this year to be another 50 pounds thinner. I left behind 21 pounds in 2010. Yeehaw!! I hope it stays there. This journey is not an easy one and I believe it is only going to get harder from here. I am just taking it one bite at a time.
There will be times in my blog that I talk about companies or their products. I would like it known I am only stating my opinions, good or bad. I am not being paid by any company to do this blog (unless someone would like to step up.). I would just like to share my experience and hopefully have some followers. Losing weight is one of the hardest things to conquer in life. If I can help one person become stronger by reading about my journey, then I know I have done my job.
Until next time....

Peace.